Sunday, July 02, 2006

i read that when they never express their love. n they put u down.its exactly like abuse. im soo sory if my complaints seem petty. god i cant take it. she told me that all i had was one bad day and im done for.
i feel so bad. m i so bad

i try sooo hard.all shed do is find something else that id done wrong.i have to get away. i cant stand home. its like all ive ever heard is beingshouted at.i feel so useless.
god i love u guys.u r like the family i feel like the only family i have.i have noone.im so sick of feeling sorry for myself.i dont wana cry anymore.
im so sick of being so stupid and being put downendlessly.all i want is a hug from her. theres never any such thing
i feel like i have no parents.they never care.i work so hard and its always nothing. its never good enough. im so sick of trying. but its gets soo much worse.i cant take it anymore. im gona snap one day.and then wat?
i duno anymore.im so sick of it. i dun beliv in anything anymore.n im sooo insecure. god.n i have a constant headache i have to bear.like she cares.i just want her to love her like i was her daughter again.

god i love u.u r like my family.n all i have
zay

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